Here we go again

I wasn’t expecting to hear the news so quickly, especially after being told it would take several weeks. So when the phone rang at 7:30 this morning, I thought for sure it wasn’t the doctor. But then again, who else would be calling me that early? The doctor was nice but stumbled on his words as he told me that I had rhabdomyosarcoma, again. It was a short conversation which led to my next step of making an appointment with the oncologist.

When I hung up the phone, I let out a good cry for a few minutes and called Dustin in Nicaragua. We both knew that it was going to turn out this way, but there was still that part of me that said, “what if?”  So it’s time to get in that mode. If you know anyone who has dealt with cancer or is currently going through it, it consumes all that you do. You have to live each day, one at a time, because you don’t know what tomorrow will bring. But, like I said in my previous post, I am ready. Dustin is on his way home right now and I can’t wait to have him with me again.

One thing I DEFINITELY do have is an amazing family, friends, and church that will (once again) make this journey doable with a smile. 

Cancer does a funny thing to the people who are around you. What do you say? What don’t you say? My only request for those who are far or near, don’t worry about that when you see me. I am not easily offended and I have no problems talking about it (as you probably figured out already). So if you hesitate to call or to say hi when you see me, please don’t. It’s the people in my life that made me smile and laugh during a time when many people would want to shrivel up on the couch and be angry at the world. And if you’re really nice to me, I’ll let you rub my hairless head - it is good luck you know!

Gotta go for now...my phone has been dinging and ringing all day! I am not complaining, it’s a blessing!!

One of my favs....

Romans 5:3-5 ...we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.